So here we are. 2008. Bloody hell.
Before we get into hopes, dreams, plans etc – lets do a quick catchup on outstanding issues due to my blog-tardiness.
Firstly, my headaches. Was going to physio, getting acupuncture, but the headaches were still coming. So bad that in Berlin I went really dizzy & almost fainted stepping off a bus. Slightly scary moment – I’ve never fainted before. So after theat episode the physio told me that although the treatment seemed to be having some effect, it wasn’t helping what seemed to be a greater problem than muscles in my neck. So, back to the neurologist. Another £220 (thank god for free medical insurance at work!), another trip to the private hospital. Again, no x-rays or anything done, no tests. Just a new drug to try – Epilim, which I’ve found out is an anti-epilepsy medication! I haven’t actually taken any yet – the amitryptiline I was on before makes it hard to wake up in the morning, so I stopped taking those. And I’m truthfully pretty scared about the Epilim. I’ve started taking the amitryptiline earlier in the evening, so it wears off before I have to get up, but I’m still scared to take the epilim. And I’m still getting my headaches.
On Wednesday this week, supposedly the first day back at work, I got out of bed and almost fell sideways. For some reason my balance had deserted me, and I was walking with a list to the right. Showering was an adventure, and I almost fell out of the shower at a few points, before I gave up on work and went back to bed. Slept most of the day and was fine when I woke. No idea what caused it – no water or pressure in my ears, I’m not missing any toes. Scared me a little, and my headaches have been pretty much constant since. Perhaps I should try the Epilim tonight, so I’ve got a weekend morning to deal with any dramas resulting.
So that’s were we are with the headaches. I’ve got two meds, an anti-depressant (amitryptiline) and seizure medication (epilim) both of which scare me. I’ve got such a low low tolerance to drugs I’m scared to take them. Yes, I’d rather live with the pain. Pain I can handle. I can deal with pain. I’ve no idea how these new drugs are going to affect me – let alone some of the nasty side effects of these things (rashes, weight gain, renal failure!). I intended to take one whilst on hols over x-moose, but truthfully (and totally unintentionally, really!) forgot. So maybe tonights the night. *sigh* I’m nervous.
Anyway, didn’t really do much over x-moose. Trying to save some money for my trip home in March. Went out with Christine to the sales for an afternoon and picked up a few things. Went to x-moose dinner at Sarah’s parent’s house with her family – which was pretty good actually. Food was lovely, the teenage kids were a little obnoxious, but that’s teenagers. Looked after Miguel & Begonia’s hamster while they went to Spain for x-moose. They brought me back some spanish ham, chorizo and a big round of sheeps cheese that I love. Very nice people they are! And my bloody ‘fraidy-cat is still scared of the hamster! Other than that, Gabe is fine and still as Gabe as can be. :)
Back at work now, which is OK at the moment cause boss is still away and my office mate has now retired! YAY! I can have the temperature where I want it, I can listen to my music, I don’t have to hide my confidential stuff, I don’t get people in and out of the office all day – it’s quite lovely really. But I know it’ll only be a month or so before I start getting frustrated again. But I’ll wait for the result of the role review thingy that I went through late last year. Letters with new pay grades and salaries are being issued next week – so we’ll see what that says.
That’s about it for the mo- I’ve rambled long enough. Wishing you all a happy 2008 and the best wishes of the season. x